Current mood:	sad
Current music:	Mr Brightside by The Killers

Dunno
I don't know why I chose to update this again... i thought i let my little livejournal/xanga thing die... i have this and xanga... and i've updated them both today... i'm kind of in a really blah mood. that's probably why.

i have a lot on my mind, i don't know most of it's about how my life just isn't going the way i expected... i just dunno i never pictured myself in the sort of situations i put myself into. i was looking over old entries, damn, i miss that life but at the same time i really don't. now it's much more exciting.

depressed becuase i've let 2 people get under my skin in the last few months... 2 guys that i've been emotionally attached to. of course i've forgotten all about will at this point but i mean now that it's happening again i remember that i was in a lot of emotional pain when i found out how little he cared... ugh but its about to happen again only this time it won't be as serious, but it might even hurt me more becuase i really do like the guy...

debating whether to call jp or not tonight. i dunno he kind of blew me off so maybe it's my turn to do the same esp if im emotionally attached.
i'm pissed cuz i have a C in physics. that's so disturbing and still i'm not doing that much about it. god grades suck

whatever i don't really know what else to say

- nikki